Last year I got to help make a horror short with my close friends! The idea stemmed at one of our writing groups and took off from there. We’re all huge fans of David Lynch & anything strange and unusual, so of course the movie is too. Jesse Livingston is the mastermind behind the Blue Room and really put everything together so well.
The experience of working with my friends and bringing the whole idea into reality was such an incredibly rewarding experience. My role was as the production manager and as the wife of Chen, so I got to be on both sides of the camera.
Personally, my biggest challenge was finding a location. So many places charge an arm & a leg…& a kidney too which is difficult for a small budget. We did end up finding the perfect location…and then the perfect actors, and everything just fell into place from there.
I’m really excited to be able to share this with people. Trying new things is probably one of my favorite parts about being alive, and this is one of those new things I’m so happy I tried. I’ll never be a Hollywood actress or film maker, but I can say I’ve made a short film and will always be so proud of all the work my friends and I put into it. Twin Peaks brought us all together. I’m very thankful it did.
The world of the fae has always had the most important place in my heart. There are so many wonderful tales and poetry inspired by these magical beings. I’ve spent my life learning about them, and one of my favorite tales is about the Selchie or Selkie. For some reason they have always drawn me in and sent a warm light through my entire body.
There are different versions of the story, but in summary, the Scottish tale tells of a fisherman/hunter that comes across some beautiful women dancing on the shore. He’s mesmerized by their beauty, and then sees the seal skins on rocks near them. If you steal the seal skin of a Selchie she cannot return to the sea, so he takes it and makes one of the beautiful ladies wed him. Eventually, she learns to love the hunter and bears a child. As the boy grows he sees how sad his mother is when she gazes out to the sea, and she explains why. Eventually he steals the skin back for his mother and she is able to return to the sea….This is definitely just a summary and I fully recommend reading the whole thing. I’ll leave a link to a version of the full story at the bottom of the page.
Something here just really tugs at my heart. According to The Faery Bible, “The sea represents emotions, but these are not just personal emotions and ordinary human bonds. The sea signifies the longing of humanity – all the memories and feelings of the ages that are too overwhelming, too deep ever to be cast aside by a being as sensitive as the Selkie. She belongs to the collective emotional pool and she must dance the dance of life – she has far more to experience than simply the domestic joys of marriage and motherhood. For us, the Selkie represents the longing of the soul for it’s true home…”
There is such a beautiful sadness to the story, that I think that we can relate to as humans. At some point I think many of us have been forced to give up an important aspect of our personality when we didn’t want to. Growing up, in a sense, feels like our skins being stolen. We adjust to life and responsibility we’d rather not have, but sometimes gaze back longingly at a time when it felt like the world was ours. Our souls are always longing for something more. Maybe it’s delusion but ever since I can remember consciousness I have always felt that my soul was far away from it’s true home in the sea. Domestication is a sickness that has always terrified me, and I wish nothing more than to be as free as a Selchie swimming in the sea. Able to survive in water and on land. Maybe in the next life, right?
As a general rule one should NEVER try and capture and control the magick of a faery being. Always respect the earth and the gifts it gives us. Work in tandem with it, and all of the magick that it holds. And if you see a Selchie, watch from a distance and never, ever steal their skins.